Tuesday, February 9, 2010

grieving



i've been spending my time quietly missing my sweet doggie. i sure do not like being sad. but i certainly realize it is all part of the grieving process. we had her cremated yesterday as the ground is just too frozen to dig through right now. can't say i enjoyed that whole process very much even though the facility was very nice. i guess it's just more finality.

when i am sad, i like to write haiku's in my journal. so i wrote a few to help capture my memories of kirby:

i see you waiting
you watching as i make your food
barking, so happy

i watch you outside
walking around, taking your stroll
find a stick to chew

you lay there sunning
wriggling around the grass
paws rubbing your nose

i see your eyes close
you drifted away peacefully
yet my heart is broken

sitting there watching
you see the world through your eyes
a bark to join in

cute button black nose
mouth full of crooked teeth
suggestive of a smile

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i've also been doing some therapeutic "fun" art. art just for me; not to sell, not to submit and not to fill orders. just no pressure, fun, fulfilling art. been altering a pair of jeans to wear in vegas, i think they are looking pretty cool.


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10 comments:

  1. So very sorry. It's such a deep loss.
    We put our Golden Bailey to rest last July.
    The pain goes away but the loss is always there. They are such a big part of our lives.
    Warm Hugs

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  2. Be good to yourself. Sending hugs!

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  3. Oh, I feel so badly for you for your loss, glad that you are creating.
    debby

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  4. Hey, I know I don't know you, but I found your blog through OWOH. I'm really sorry about your loss. I've had to put a dog down before, so to a certain extent I know how you feel. Your posts made me cry, but I thought your hikus were great. Again, my deepest sympathies.

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  5. We don't like grieving and we don't like the sadness that accompanies it, but it's meant to be that way and it's okay to feel that way. It's perfectly okay to submit to it and allow it to be part of who we are. It's all about love and we can't put that aside or put it in a box and say "I just have to get on with this." because we don't have to get on with it...we need to allow our grief and our sadness to be present and accounted. Doing art for yourself, writing haiku...that's all exactly the kind of things you should be doing now Kecia. Your heart needs time to heal. Pamper yourself. xoxoxo

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  6. Hi Kecia - just stopped in to get a little caught up on your blog and am so sorry to hear about Kirby. My family recently had to say farewell to our friend Holly who had lived with us since I was 12. It's hard to loose a family member even after a long good life. Take care dear. Sounds like you are doing just the right thing for yourself.

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  7. So sorry sweetheart, she looks like our Cleo :) Hugs and love to you,
    Tami

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  8. I'm sorry for your loss. It's good that in your
    grieving, you're remembering the good times. I have an 11 yr old lab and I know someday he won't be my shadow anymore...wishing you smiles!
    kelly

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